Somehow I am starting to feel that I am no longer important. Should I run faster so that he chases after me? Nah that will never happen. I am the one who gets upset when I cannot spend time with him. I am the one who will roll all the way just to get him to notice me.

Once I've asked him,

"If one day I decided to leave you, will you ask me to stay?"

He said "No"

Then again I asked,

"If one day, I was mad at you for causing great wound on me, will you come back to me when my anger subsides?"

He said "No"

Sometimes I feel very insecure by his indifferent act, but I can just predict what he will reply me if I was to tell him about how I feel.

"If you are thinking such way, there's nothing I can do"

Damn I am so confused. Why am I behaving like this in the first place? I love everything about him except for his lack of courtesy and being too indifferent. Wtf what should I do :( Am I being selfish?